The longest night!

Full moon and the dew on the grass.

Silent streets and the midnight hours.

Some electronic music and the hand on the wheel.

My life is complicated but it's no big deal!

Driving at a 100 miles an hour I look at the rearview mirror,

The view of the bridge could never be more clear.

I analyze my life..

I am 25 today.. A long way I have come.

Thinking about those memories still makes me numb!

The lane ahead is narrow,

There is room for only one of us, either me or sorrow!

Shining cars are parked on the curb.

Joy is entering my life as a healing herb.

I am slowing down as my destination nears.

I think of my life again;

I think of all those who are always by me,

Lending their support so I can hold back those tears.

I choose my spot to park,

A corner which is fairly dark.

A quiet night where all I hear,

Is a distant dog's bark!

I switch off the ignition and turn off the lights.

It gets darker and the blacks take over the whites!

I exit the car and shut the door behind me..

I think, "if I go missing today will anyone come to find me?"

And the answer comes to me right away;

In many a heart I still stay.

Of course they will come to find me..

And to remind me..

That no matter how dark the alley or how quiet the night,

"We always have you in sight"!!!

I enter through the gates where the security guard waits,

He offers a smile and I return the gesture.

"He would also have problems", I think..

But on his face he stills paints this happy caricature!

I have finally reached home and it's time to sleep.

My mind is still active and the thoughts are running deep.

My eyes won't shut and I don't know what to do,

I feel like saying so much but then I talk to who?

I see the days newspaper on the center table.

I flip through some pages but to understand, I am unable!

I am fed up of these games my mind plays with me,

And decide that darkness will no longer rule me.

I think of a beautiful memory.

It involves her, a ring and us by the sea!

Brings that smile back on my face.

Oh! Those really were the days..

I am smiling again and so it comes to attention..

My thoughts and feelings are all my creation!

And, I have finally found the solution,

To give the darkness a rightly deserved vacation.

I switch on the lights.

Oh! It feels so much better already..

I am gonna move on now..

For once I am certain that 'I am ready'!

I am ready to care again.

To make someone feel special.

I am ready to bring joy to her life.

And to tear these distances apart,

With a sharp-edged knife!

I feel happy again and I might even get some sleep!

No room on my bed for sorrow or hate

Because the bed is taken by the two of us.

It's taken by me and 'Faith!'