Memories!

Life is so unpredictable! Sometimes we are certain about what we have and before we know it, it's gone!

I just understood the meaning of Karma! Whatever we do, eventually catches up with us..
I have been blaming 2010 for being a bad year for me.. Almost nothing went my way the entire year!! But then is it really 2010 I shall blame or were there mistakes that I made that I better rectify!

I haven't been the perfect, righteous guy that my well wishers would hope I'd be. I have been bad, I have been wrong, I have done things that I wish I hadn't. But I also believe that we all have an opportunity, a chance to rectify our lives. To set things straight.

Agreed that some things cannot be rectified, some wounds can't be healed and some errors cannot be white-inked! But then I have this feeling that Karma has a certain set of rules.. where we all have a chance to be better than our previous selves, to work on our err's and bring our lives back on track.

I have only one major regret in 2010.. the fact that I lost the girl who I loved more than God himself. But I know that I will always have that love for her. I know I lost her not just due to some fights and issues that faced our relationship, I did lose her to many wrong's that I did which I didn't rectify in time.

And when I did try to rectify them, turns out I was a little too late in doing so!

I know I lost her but then if I wouldn't have, I wouldn't have realized the worth of that relation. Today, even though I feel exceedingly incomplete without her, I feel happy for her and glad that she got herself out of the relation that did not make her happy. But I'm sure she knows that there is at least one person in the world that she can always depend and count on, if not as someone she wants to be with, then at least as a good friend and an ally.

2010, on the whole was a year I would love to forget.. to erase or probably rewing and replay in my own little way. But then they haven't yet come up with the commercial version of the time-machine!!! And maybe it's good they haven't cuz this year will always remind me that we can all have good times and bad and even miserable ones. It's totally on us on how we come back from them.

Here's to 2011 though.. It's been a good start - a positive one! I have the job, I have quit drinking too ;)
I want to hereby live 2011 with no regrets and with a lot of optism. I have a lot of goals and aims this year and am super-sure that this is gonna be an unbelievably good year for me both emotionally and financially!

And who knows, if the 2012 prophecy comes true, this is the last full 365 days ever!

P.S. : And just if you'll are wondering, I haven't been all that bad.. I mean I wasn't good but I wasn't criminally wrong either. They are error's I can live with but would still like to set them right with time.

Hence, @ 26: I have a much bigger new year resolution that just quitting alcohol or apologizing to all those who I have severed relations with! My resolution is to be a better human and to respect what I have rather that cribbing over what I don't.

Until next time..