Denying the Angel !!!

When the day started with the misty sky..

The birds tweeting
The zephyrs on a high!

I snoozed and snoozed and then woke up..

Languid as a baby
Sporting an annoying hiccup

I got ready to leave home..

Put on my shoes
Ran through my hair with a comb

On the boulevard I was when a coupe stalled by me..

An angel stepped down
Well, could that really be?

She wanted to say something but knew I had more than one question..

She said in her sugar tone
"I will hear you out, but first I need your absolute attention!"

I was certain I was dreaming, but I wanted this to go on..

She whispered to my ears,
In your life, I bring dawn!

I was immersed the dream now and even deeper I wanted to go..

She was taking me with her now
To a place that resembled Arcadia's door!

She then sat me down on a meadow, next to me she rested and started to ask..

Are you pleased with your life today?
Or are there things you would want to change!
You can ask me for those changes today..
I'll answer just two, however simple or strange!

"I hope this is real!", I wondered to myself.
Well, she really did look like a Goddess of Elf.
I began to envisage and consider some more
Idea's were coming to my mind galore.

Shall it be 'A billion Dollars'?
Or could I ask for an 'Infinite Mansion'
Shall I ask for a 'World Tour'
OR Just ask her to make me rich and famous like Richard Branson!

I had just two choices
And I had to be wise
No room for error this time round
I didn't have second tries!

I finally wrote the two things I wanted on a iota of tissue
I passed it over to her and rose up to leave
She asked me to stay
For the reason that, she couldn't believe!

She was shocked and astonished
And she didn't know what to say
She looked beautiful in white
I wanted eternally for this dream to stay

My wishes were facile..

The elementary one stated, "turn mortal and return to earth'
She was just perfect I thought to myself
My every gasp she was worth

The secondary one was simpler, "Marry me!", it said!
Its too tough to find perfect girls on earth anyway, i winked
Why not settle down with an angel
"Let's make the world envious, I say"

I chose to see the lighter side of this for a very important reason. All those materialistic things I will earn anyway. I know my abilities and what I am capable of achieving in life.
Honestly, we all are capable of achieving loads of success, there is just one thing stopping us! OUR Ingenuity!

Work on it and train your minds to achieve it and you won't ever need an angel or aladdin to grant you any wishes. You will have it all!!!

Surprise the people around with those decisions they never expect you to make. And better them with time. Take the tough call and back yourself. Deny the angel the chance to feel that she succeeded by being the one who always grants your wishes.

Make the angel feel that you yourself are capable of getting whatever it is that you need. And that all you need besides your own abilities is the motivation to go get 'em.

Today, I am at another crossroads in life. A route where there is this amazing stopover where I would want to stay forever.

She is alluring and reflective and is in realtiy an angel in every perspective.
She smiles and looks sublime.
She speaks and I lose track of time.
She walks and I trail her where she goes.
She blinks and in her eyes I see heaven's doors.

I barely even know her and feel like I have known her for eternity.
I barely even met her and feel like she offers divinity.
I barely even opened up to her but I feel like she knows everything there is to know about me.
I barely even touched her but I invariably feel her arms around me.

I don't know if she likes me back.
Or if she wants to be with me.
I don't know if I'll ever be with her.
Or if a dream she will always be.
I don't know if this is true love.
But I do know she is my life's glee.

Please give me a chance. To my heart you are the key.

Azaad!

Tum saath the uss din

Jab thi aisi barsaat

Tum saath the uss din

Jab kahi tumse har baat

Saath bhi the uss din

Jab bheege hum saari raat

Naa jaane kahaan gaye ho ab

Bheeg raha hoon tum bin

Tarasein nain chahein ik mulakat

Ab tham ja aye barsaat; tu tham ja aye barsaat!

Maine kaha tha tujhse

Tujh bin jee na paaoonga

Aankhein jo kholoon aur; Naa saamne ho tum

Iss zindagi se main; Toh rooth jaaoonga

Naa jee sakoonga main;

In tanhayeeon mein yoon..

Raahon mein kho hee jaaoonga 

Main toh jee na paaoonga..

Tu ne kaha tha mujhse

Naa jaaoongi main kaheen

Leti hoon yeh kasam

Rahoongi hamesha yaheen!

Aaj mudke dekhoon toh

Dikhti hai tanhayee

Jab saath chodna tha

Toh kyun kasam khayee?

Ab har kadam par main

Kyun mudta rehta hoon?

Shayad tum aa jaao

Kyun khudse kehta hoon?

Kyun karta hoon ummeed?

Kyun tumhe yaad karta hoon?

Jo kho gaya use

Ab aazaad karta hoon!

Teri yaadon ko main man, se azaad karta hoon!

Zindagi..

Kuch kehti hai yeh hawa

Andheron mein goonjti hai yeh hawa..

Jhoomti hai lehraati hai

Hum se kuch kehna chahti hai yeh hawa!

Kuch kehti hai yeh leher

Andheron mein goonjti hai yeh leher..

Patharon se takraati hai

Hum se kuch kehna chahti hai yeh leher!

Kuch kehti hai yeh zindagi

Andheron mein goonjti hai yeh zindagi..

Raaston mein kho jaati hai

Hum se kuch kehna chahti hai yeh zindagi!

Chaahe ho hawa

Yaan ho leher

Yaan phir ho zindagi ki yeh seher

Jeena sikhaana chahti hai yeh zindagi

Andheron mein raaste mushkil ho jaate hain zaroor

Andheron mein rishte kho jaate hain zaroor

Jo kabhie apne the woh ho bhi jaate hain door

In waqton mein bhi

Apna raasta dhoondhna sikhaati hai yeh zindagi

Na taare na chandni raat

Na khushiyan na koi jasbaat

Na saath ho chahe kisika haath

Khud ko sambhaalna sikhaati hai zindagi

Jo ho na ho taqdeer ka saath

Jeena sikhaati hai yeh zindagi

Reflections!

Still grass and resonance of breeze..
The quiet of the night and three winks of peace.
Reflecting on life!
Reflecting on me!
The path so clear..
I now can see.

We all have dreams,
And so it seems..
Lounging on my shoulder,
The moonlight beams!

Life today, is what we make of it.
Or may I say,
It's what we take from it.
All lessons learnt.
All moments earned.
Destiny revealed,
And tables turned.

The stars today..
Are whispering to me.
They want me to believe
And want me to see..

Something momentous is on the cards.
Something momentous is going to be!

Still grass and resonance of breeze..
The quiet of the night and three winks of peace.

The radiance from the stars,
Is glimmering at me!
It wants me to believe
And wants me to see..

There is light at the end of every passage.
There is fruition after crossing every hindrance.

Still grass and resonance of breeze..
The quiet of the night and three winks of peace.

The lonesome moon,
Is smiling at me!
He wants me to fathom
And wants me to believe..

That he met the stars in a somber night too.
That, "I can smile and so will you"

Still grass and resonance of breeze..
The quiet of the night and three winks of peace.
Reflecting on life!
Reflecting on me!
The path so clear..
I now can see.

The Moment. The Journey.

Amazing how sometimes we see/hear something and it just stays in our minds forever, sometimes as inspiration or sometimes even as a form of guidance.

I was sitting at home last night when I decided to clear out my Hard drive off all the unnecessary data in order to make space for all the new movies and series that I needed to save.
I run through all my movie folders trying to see which ones to delete. So I arrive at this movie called 'Peaceful Warrior' and I go, "I guess I shall delete it. Haven't even seen it yet."
But then something made me play the movie just to see the contents. AND IT GOT ME HOOKED ON.

It is certainly one of my favourite movies ever. And it made even more sense in the end when I found out that it was based on a true story.

Let me quote a conversation from the movie..
Socrates: Where are you?
Dan Millman: Here.
Socrates: What time is it?
Dan Millman: Now.
Socrates: What are you?
Dan Millman: This moment.

Above was one of my dearest scenes from the movie when this guy named Socrates guides a young athlete (Dan) and teches him to live in the moment and follow something that truly makes him happy, no matter what the odds. He says it so beautifully, "It is the journey that brings joy. Once you're on top, you always start looking for a new journey to begin because you want to feel joy again."

"We are all made up of special moments. In fact, every moment in our life is a special one. And it is this journey that defines the special moments.This one is special to me because I am writing something inspirational that I just found out."

- Me

The most important thing I heard though was not the conversation above, but the conversation below...

Life has just three rules.

And you already know them...

Paradox, humour, and change.

Paradox...

Life is a mystery. Don't waste time trying to figure it out.

Humour...

Keep a sense of humour, especially about yourself. It is a strength beyond all measure.

Change...

Know that nothing stays the same.

The moment we all realize this fact is the moment we will understand the truth of life. That truth will help us understand what is truly our purpose. What makes us happy. What matters and what doesn't. We will gain that control over our lives which will help us think so much more clearly about all our actions and reactions.

Nobody is perfect, but we all strive toward it. Seek yourself and identify what/who brings you joy. Then work toward it forever. Live in the journey. Not the destination.

Who Am I?

The world around you is loaded with people who have different appearances, personalities, habits, lifestyles, etc.
That is what makes them unique, doesn't it?
Then why change who we are for anyone at all. Why change our way of living or our lifestyle or our attitude toward certain things?

Well there is a 2-pronged answer to that actually. More often than not I'd say that we shouldn't change ourselves for anyone. Because who we are defines us. That is what separates us from the crowd. Hence, it is important that the world around us, more-so the people around us, accept us the way we are and not for the way they perceive we'd be if we begin to change and live the way they like.

I mean, it is important that we adapt! It is important that we adjust! That we be flexible and seep in to the ways of our relations. Doesn't mean that to gain acceptance in a group, we need to start smoking or eat non-vegetarian food. But it could mean that even though we might be bad at remembering dates, for example, we still keep reminders and take extra effort so that we do not end up forgetting their birthdays.

Life is about adapting to situations and adjusting with people. That is what transforms us from being naive, immature and innocent to being wise, matured and understood.

When we come into this world. We do not carry with us any pre-conceived notions about life nor do we own any material possessions. We come into this life with a few relations that have been assigned to us.
When I came into this world, I owned nothing. It was just me and that was enough. When I leave, I will have left alone but with so many more relations that I made and and with an experience of life.
So if I know it for certain, that my experience is all that I will take back.. Why not make it worth remembering and cherishing on the other side!


Be yourself! But learn adaptation. That is what will take you past all hurdles, make you climb the steepest of steps, reach the highest of peaks and make you the happiest you ever imagined yourself to be.

LIVE.. and Live complete..

A couple of lines that I can think of..

Who are you to me? Who am I to you?

There is a purpose for we, a reason we cannot see

Am so glad that I ever met thee.

I wonder so often, how this road was built

How the river was cleared and so was the silt

You're happiness to me. My reason for joy.

Who are you to me?

Are you the angel I always dreamed of?

Or the artist who colors my life?

Are you the architect who puts me together?

Or the teacher who guides me to light?

Who are you to me? Who am I to you?

A hazy image of you, is all I have today

A beautiful silhouette that you are, covered in mesmerizing shades of gray.

You treat me well and never demand

You teach me well and never command

Who are you to me? Who am I to you?

A friend, A confidante, an ace up my sleeve

You never tell me what to do..

In me somehow, you always believe.

You never ask questions but yet have the answers;

You never raise doubts. Who are you really?

Who are you to me? Who am I to you?

Time to write..

It's strange that even though I love writing, I have started doing this just since the last one year or so.

Doesn't it happen many times that we realize what we love doing really late? That we should have been an athlete or been a teacher or a poet. When we share our thoughts, others around us just feel its more like a FAD and not something of a passion to us. And do we really need to prove ourselves to anyone? Not At All I'd say!!! Those who believe in and have faith in us will support our decisions!

So go ahead and follow what your heart tells you to follow. Work in a corporate office filing financial documents all day and then go home and create that business plan that you always wanted to. Buy your dream SLR/DSLR camera and click what you see. Write the novel and get it published.

I didn't offer the support once to the person who needed it. Today I know how it feels when you want to follow a dream and get boo'ed and belittled along the way. 'What goes around.. Comes around'

I love sports and I love writing. So I make it a point to write a page or two each day and to play at least one sport every single day. I work on my business plan.. my ultimate dream and polish it every time I get a chance. And the more I look at it, the more I feel confident that I'll make that dream a reality sometime soon..

We all are loaded with talents and abilities which are like completely unexplored. Some of us can be marathon runners, some squash champions, national level swimmers, authors, actors, directors, etc. Identify that in you. And work on it. Feel it. Believe in it. You will start feeling that people around you will start supporting you too.

Last night when I was writing. I was thinking of a very important recent incident in my life. I felt that I penned it down to the minutest detail and was very happy with how I framed it. I then realized, "I now have a dream". To publish what I write sometime soon. For that I obviously need to learn more but I am certain I will publish something.

Believe me.. the only one stopping you today is YOU!

Until next time..

Discover!

Life is, as we know it, a real roller-coaster of emotions. We face various situations over the years that define our personalities.

We're Happy.
We're Sad.
Sometimes Upset, yet,
Sometimes evil and bad.


We're Sane.
We're Insane.
We're Naughty.
And we feel pain.


We laugh at jokes.
We cry too.
We love.
We get tears in our eye too.

We live it all, don't we?

Finally, in life I have discovered my path. It's not just my career but a lot more than that actually. I finally feel that this new street has opened up right in front of me. No left's, no right's.

This street is amazing. It has the house I always dreamed to live in. My favourite restaurants and bars. It has star-gate's to my favourite destinations around the world. Those places that I have always wanted to travel to and experience. It has all the love I need. This street has homes of all my friends on it. A sports academy where I can play all I want. A library where I can read all I want. A theater where I can see all the movies I wish to. A showroom where I can order the cars that I always dreamed I wanted to own. And much more.

This street, in fact, is nothing but the path my life has now taken. I feel it within that there is this certain energy I possess and hopefully will spread around that will make things perfect and also help me become the real ME. A jovial, fun-loving, happy guy who wants to achieve and succeed in life. But not forget his true identity.

I feel lighter at heart, happier in mind and just content with what I have and with where I stand today. I have friends who are just what I could have ever asked for. A wonderful family. A job where I feel I fit in so well.

So go ahead. Create your own imaginary street. And promise yourself one thing. That you will believe in your dream and keep reminding yourself 2 things.

One: That you truly deserve all that you dreamed of.
Two: That you're more than capable of achieving it all.

Make this street you 'Wish-list'. Add to it your dream vacation destinations. Your favourite hobbies. Your friends. Your car that you always wanted to buy. Your favourite brands. Your loved ones. Add everything that makes you 'happy'. If you wanna climb the everest, put it up there and look at it often.


So that everytime you reflect on it and look through it, it only gets you to smile and be happier. Not to forget, work harder towards getting there.

We're nothing without our dreams. Just incomplete physical beings with a soul trapped inside.

SO..

Dream. Believe. Love. Discover Life.

P.S. : We will have roadblocks and rough rides on the way. It is a part of the game. Believe me, without them we will never ever gauge the true value of what we wish to achieve in life and where we aspire to be.

Until next time..

Reflections!

Life is a path not so straight
We have many sudden turns to take
There is a quiz to answer everyday
A puzzle to solve all along the way

I wonder and think and find meanings for
I analyze and ponder and think some more
A simple truth so hard to digest
Failing to believe how life is shaping itself today
Its all for the good i know for sure
But why through the darkness, I wish the tunnel would end here

I reflect over the past few years
Have witnessed all seasons
The rains have been beautiful for obvious reasons
Every moment I remember today,
I feel short of words to say

But I do need to say
Thank you for those years with me
There was nowhere else I'd wish to be
I know I'll dearly miss those moments
Maybe this is in our destiny!


I look up today
The skies are cloudy
The wind blows hastily
Carrying with it the dust, moisture and my life in a certain direction

I have to stop expecting I know
But I need to have that time to believe
To have faith and to trust myself again
To reason with myself
To figure me out
And to clear every doubt

I reflect on the seasons gone
I reflect on the nights unslept
I reflect on the joys and sorrows
I reflect on the times I wept!

I begin to understand now
The meaning of a complete life
It's not just about materialistic pleasures
Or spending years finding the perfect wife!!!
Life is a series of experiences
Both fulfilling and unfulfilling
We have to witness them all
To understand life's true meaning.

Some moments come crashing down on us
We give up all hope and desire
But there are those moments too
That lift us up again and help us aim higher!

Let's live for the joy's
Let's live to feel complete
Let's face the sorrows
Let's never, in life, accept defeat!

Being lonely is just an excuse
Being upset is just of no use
Live for today and plan for tomorrow
Things will surely fall in place
You smiling face the world will borrow!

Face the mirror! Reflect!
Dream on! Life, if you believe in it, is perfect!

Today @26, I am at a juncture where my mind and heart are constantly at loggerheads over every decision that I need to make. But I am beginning to mend the broken relationship between them and find the peace. Life as we know it, is too short and moves much faster than we imagine. So every minute I waste is 60 seconds lost.
So let's live. Take Chances. Play a sport. Meet new people. Do something stupid and love it. Let's laugh until our stomach hurts. Let's dance until our feet are sore. Let's eat on the roadside. Let's watch a stupid movie and complain. Buy what you desire. Take a trip to your dream destination.
Live like there is NO TOMORROW!!!

Until next time..

Crossroads!

Well as glad as I am about the year 2010 coming to an end.. I still haven't really found the right path on the crossroads of my life!

I finally feel that career-wise, I am at the right place doing what I should have always done. But then I still feel unstable in most other aspects that complete life.

But then if we think about.. We are all vulnerable at some points in our lives. Maybe this is the time where I will finally identify the strengths in all avenues of life and bounce back. Be a better human being than I was!! And to be very honest, there always was vast scope for improvement!!!

Life, as I see it, has three clear outcomes.. Win. Lose. Trail.

Like the phrase goes.. We win some and we lose some. But the key thing here is that if we do not lose those few, we do not really appreciate the joy of winning the others. I have been very pessimistic about a lot of things lately and that hasn't really helped my cause of trying to fight through these hard times and coming out a better person.

We really have to reflect each event that occurs in our lives and take out of it the valuable information. Create a sort of a filter. Vulnerability is not something we have to be ashamed about or be embarrassed about. It is something that helps us understand the value of relations and people who affect our lives each day.

And about trailing in some paths of life. There is nothing wrong with it. It can be called wrong if we give up because we trail for too long instead of just hanging in there and working on ourselves to put us in a better position and be able to win!!

If I may truly open up and say the absolute truth.. I give up too soon myself and am sincerely hoping that writing and reviewing my blog will help me too. I apologize but I am the last example of 'practice before you preach'.

Today @ 26, I am not looking for anything in life. I am looking for life to shape itself. I will just try and adapt and adjust myself in a way that I make the best of the rest of it.

P.S. The things you own can't make you as happy as the things you do.. If you have to choose between buying something or spending the money on a memorable experience, don't hesitate...go with the experience!

Until next time..